Day 30

I have made it to Day 30! Tonight I will attend the 6pm class and then take tomorrow off! (I think.) Somehow, I have managed to have amnesia after every class. I come out feeling awesome then my body starts to get a little creaky again and I think, "Time to go to class!" Then when I'm in the midst of it, I think, "Why the hell am I doing this to myself? I'll never come again," or "There's no way my brain will let me forget this pain. I am so disappointed in myself for giving up but there is no way I will come back to this torture chamber." But I do, because it's so good for me. According to Bikram, I work every gland and muscle and organ in my body with this workout. And not only is it a workout, but it also helps me attain control of my mind and body which in turn helps me in my spiritual quest to unite with God.

I have become friendlier with the people I practice with on a regular basis. Not to the point where I talk to them much but we give each other knowing smiles before or after class. Once you recognize a regular class-goer, you both can share each other's pain because we're all dying in class. When one is fading, we all start to fade. It really is a shared energy in that room. The more strength we can add to the class, the better all of our practices become. I know I am rejuvenated psychologically when I know there are a bunch of teachers practicing alongside me. Their strength automatically adds to my own.

I am really proud of myself for making it this far in my practice and hope my practice continues to be strong.